Anxious

So it's Friday!

I'm really excited it's the weekend. No school, a little work, and relaxation.

Since it's Friday, tomorrow is Saturday which means weigh-in day. I don't know why but I'm always super nervous about weighing myself. I have this ridiculous doubt that I'm going to have gained weight or not have lost any. I mean, I had another dream that I had lost more weight and that should encourage me but it just doesn't. I mean, my dreams haven't been wrong yet...I should trust my sub-conscious. I mean, I know I haven't eaten badly, minus one day when I went over my maximum intake by 100calories. Other than that, I have had barely any chocolate or bad things to eat. I just wish I could believe I had lost weight. Guess the scale shall tell all tomorrow!

So, something new that happened this week, one of my friends and I have decided to go to the gym early in the mornings on Tuesdays. See, I've been going to my gym after I'd get out of class on Tuesdays around 3:30. However, this time is the worst time to go because everyone and their grandmaw are there at 3:30! Seriously, it took me 30 minutes to park this past Tuesday and I had to cut my workout short because the machines I needed were being used. I did get to do my cardio and a little extra, at that. So I'm hoping that didn't hinder my workout or weightloss too much. And she wants the accountability for going to the gym for at least an hour. See she's going to try-out for this rocking dance team and is trying to "get her thighs to not touch." Hahaha! So it'll be good for both of us to have that accountability on Tuesdays. I'll just have to shower before class at the gym.

Hopefully my anxieties will be put to rest tomorrow morning. My dream was that I had lost like 10lbs or something? Which I doubt, but hopefully another 4. =)

So, pray that I won't give into my temptations and that I can rest assured that as long as I continue to eat right and exercise, I will lose weight and it will be good.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

changing

So I gotta say I'm pretty excited right now.

One, I feel fantastic! My endorphins are flowing full speed and all the toxins are out of my body. Basically I had a great workout. Definitely need to get to an asthma specialist because my chest got really tight today even with the inhaler I have.

Two, I'm noticing my body changing. Its the weirdest and best thing ever! Like, I notice that a shirt doesn't quite outline every buldge anymore. Or that those annoying bulsges around my body are looking smaller. Even more exciting, my bras fit better! Guys, you might wanna skip the rest of this paragraph. So I've had high breasts all my life and they've always kind of overflowed. Well, they're fitting better into their cups! I don't have to adjust or feel like I need to constantly watch them right now. If you know me well, you understand why this is so great for me. Men, and women, tend to notice and its annoying when I go to order food and I have to repeat my order because the guy behind the cash register was too distracted by my breasts! Its humiliating. Now as they're getting smaller because of my weightloss, I can start being treated more like everyone else and give my order once. And I'll also be able to buy clothes easier. With big boobs, it's really hard to get tops that aren't too low and require a cami with them. My mom tries so hard to buy me things I don't have to layer with, but its really hard.

Anyway, so its cool seeing my body morph into a smaller me. Even more than just seeing it, I'm feeling it. I have more energy, I'm hungrier(which shows my metabolism is up) and I sleep better at night! Everything is going great.

One last thing about this new lifestyle I love, is the fact that its just that. A lifestyle. I won't be as tired for the rest of my life, I'll he able to help others make more informed choices about working out and eating, and my children won't have a fat mommy. I always worried about my kids seeing me fat and following in my footsteps. I want my family to eat healthy and exercise as a family. It just sounds fun to me.

Well, there you have it! I'm doing well and in two days we'll see the results of this week's work.

Pray this mindset continues and that this new lifestyle will help with stress as it comes.

I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.
--Maggie Mae

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It's Like My own Series!

So you know those TV shows on MTV that I had mentioned where the girls were only a bit bigger than I and how they always seem to lose tons of weight in like 3 months? Well, I'm starting to feel like them, just with out the TV cameras and stuff. Like literally, I was thinking the only reason they actually lose weight so quickly and stuff is because they're on TV and they have to or whatever.

Well, I kind of feel like them now. I have tons of people constantly telling me about how they read this and how people are proud and stuff. IT's really great. I'm so excited to have so many people supporting me!

Anyway, so I'm a bit sore today, which is good. Really good. I've been trying to make myself sore every workout but it hasn't been happening. I just couldn't get sore! Today though, my armpits and legs are relatively sore. It's a really great feeling. It makes me feel like I'm actually doing something right.

Something else super exciting, I'm not as tired after working out as I was the first few times. I can catch my breath a little fast and my heart beat tends to slow a little more after quicker. It's pretty cool. I also remember that when I did my first or second interval training on the elliptical my heart rate sky-rocketed to 216 for a bit. Now the highest I can get it is around 190. Which is still pretty high, but it shows that my body is getting in better shape.

I still need to go to the doctor to find out what I need to do about my asthma. Yesterday, as I went into my first interval session, I felt my chest tighten and I thought I might have to get off. I decided to just push through and see what would happen since I could still breathe decently. I got my breathing back in order and my chest wasn't really tight anymore. I think I just need something like an inhaler to take before and after workouts or whatever. We'll see.

So, my week is starting out well. I still have a few things I need to get done, like ordering one more textbook and trying to figure out where my other one is and why it hasn't arrived and get my phone fixed. But all is seemingly well.

Pray for my consistency with working out to continue because its starting to get hard to keep it up.

I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

It's Saturday

So, the last time I weighed myself was 6days ago. And today I weigh 4.8lbs LESS! Making it a total loss so far of 5.6 lbs.

I'm super excited! Not to mention proud and thankful all at the same time.

I can't wait to see what will happen this next week.

So if you're just tuning in and curious as to what on earth helped me lose that weight. Well, you see I have been eating much less food. Like between 1500-1700 calories a day. I've been diligent about exercising with weight training and interval cardio training. I've been posting a blog to help with my accountability. And lastly, I rely fully on God. He is the only thing that gets me through each day and with prayers like,"Lord, help my metabolism speed up," I have lost a good amount of weight in a small period of time. Also wanna give a shout out to my brother for being the most awesome personal trainer ever! He always gets on my case about eating unhealthy foods and helps direct me in a more healthy way and he's giving me other options and being there basically 24/7 for my questions and with his answers.

I'd also like to thank the people that continue to pray for and support me. My parents, sister, brother, and all the friends that I have that randomly come to me and say,"Oh hey! I've been reading your blog. Keep it up!"

So, now I'm at work and writing this because it finally slowed down. I honestly do really know what else to put up here today. I mean, the big news has been said. Yep, that's all I got for right now.

Pray that this weightloss continues and next week I lose a great amount as well!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae =)

A Chance to Breathe...sorta

So this week has been crazy busy, but that's when I tend to stick to my healthy living ways better(let's not call it dieting....dieting is temporary. healthy living is always). I haven't had time to ponder over just wanting food because I'm bored because I haven't been bored! It's been a really good week. And right now I have a small and short chance to breathe a little, even though I have no chance tomorrow through next week to breathe any more....ha.

I'm nervous about weighing-in tomorrow simply because I am. I know I've done well this week as far as keeping up with exercising, writing down every little thing I ingest, and not eating typically fattening foods. I just am anxious to see the results, I guess.

I had a dream the other night though that was kind of encouraging. I dreamed I had lost like 40lbs! I stepped on the scale like ten times to make sure in my dream. And as weird as it is, when I have dreams like that about my weight, they're normally true. Like one time I dreamed I gained 1lb. The next day I weighed, and I did. One time I dreamed I lost 2lbs. Same thing. I know I didn't lose 40lbs this week, but I had to have lost something!

On another note, my "trainer" got mad at me today. We went to Outback to eat and I ended up being honest and telling him I had "treated" myself to a low-fat how mocha from McDonald's. He got mad because of all the sugar and "empty" calories I had just put in my body that probably got processed right away and stored as fat. I guess I really shouldn't think of eating unhealthy things as "treating myself" because I'm really hurting myself in the long run. Hmm, that's definitely an interesting thought. Let's see if that works for this next week!

Well, keep posted for the weigh-in. Pray I lost weight and that my anxiety is for naught.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

WOAH Bessy!

Weird title I know. But it just kind of describes how I'm feel at this exact moment in time.

So while my hours for school may not be many this semester, the 13 I am taking have me doing crazy amounts of work! I know stress doesn't always help in losing weight, but I feel like I'm gonna be so super busy that I wont have time to snack on the "unmentionables." Good thing I realized today is that working out is now a priority for me. It's really cool. Like today I knew I was gonna have to either kill myself trying to fit in a workout and a shower before leadership or go before my class. I went before. It was kind of nice because there were less people there than in the afternoons.

Anyway, working out is going really well. I was sore yesterday and tweeked one of my muscles in a painful way but it went away by the time I got to the gym, which I was going to regardless of comfort level. Don't worry though, I know my limits and won't be hurting myself.

After my workout today I knew I wouldn't have time to make lunch and shower and catch the bus. So in our gym there's a smoothie king. I thought I would just get a "trim down" smoothie and I'd be in the clear. Well I texted my brother to ask if they were okay for a meal and to my amazement he said no way! Apparently their Smoothies are more than milk and fruit. He said there was tons of sugar in them and they're really high calorie. I knew the calorie thing but almost didn't believe his sugar thing. So I looked it up. A 20oz muscle punch has 366 calories, 84 carbs, and 75 sugars!!! I was like woah! Seriously! That's ridiculous! So I drank my smoothie but its likely I with never order another. Next time I'm running short on time, I'll be hitting up mc's for a salad. Cheap and better for you.

Well there's my life right now. ..plus work. Luckily I can do schoolwork while at work. Makes it loads easier!

Alrighty, so I ask you to pray that I can keep my center Jesus, remain committed to my commitments, and live through the semester!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does so I can.
--Maggie Mae

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Schedules, disclaimers, and balancing acts!

I'm trying to remember if anything remarkable or worth mentioning happened today.

Well, I had a productive day to say the least. Did a photo-shoot (that's right, I'm a model in the making ;] ), cleaned and organized my room, and am ready for school to start tomorrow!

It was an okay day food-wise. I did fail at passing up the snack of Zaps chips (my very favorite type of potato chip) while watching TV. However, it was only a serving so I guess it wasn't a total failure. I made my lunch and went on a picnic with a dear friend and then made a not-so-healthy dinner. It was basically just a spanish rice mix. It wasn't horrible calorie wise but it definitely wasn't healthy. Tomorrow I'm making a nice chicken dish for me and two wonderful women I'll be leading a bible study with this semester. (If you wanna come along we'll be having it Tuesdays 7-9 at my place! Email, call, or text for more info =] )

Now, I want you to be aware, it is very possible and all the more likely that I will be missing posts more often now that school is starting. My days are long and filled, but if I get a spare minute I'll give an update. Weight will still be updated weekly for sure. So if the posts become more scarce, you can count on that one on Saturdays. Definitely going to try hard to get one up here at least once a day. It helps me to know that I have accountability and that I'll have to be honest at the end of the day with the people who read this blog.

One last thing, while planning my days for the semester, I have finalized my workout schedule for those that were thinking about working out with me. Here are my days and times:

Sundays 3-4, Tuesdays 3:30-4:30, and Thursdays 10:30-11:30 or 3:30-4:30. If you can come with me great! If you can commit and come every week, awesome. If you can come once in a blue-moon that's awesome too!

I'm excited about this semester. It's super busy and there's a lot going on, but I know God's in all of it and that just makes it better.

So, be praying I can keep up with this crazy life I'm living and that I can find the perfect balance of health, school, work, and play.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae