Passion?

I need a passion.

I am interested in so many different things. I love each and ever interest and I always feel this strange stirring in my heart when I'm doing one of my many hobbies. The problem is I can't honestly say I am passionate about any of them.

Though we are not of this world, we are in it for a short time and with that being said I will have to go back to school to further my career in something in order to provide for my family and what not. But...the problem is I have no true passion. The only passion of mine is to be a mother and to help people. I can't be a mom quite yet (the whole marriage thing has to happen before that) and helping people is something I do on a daily basis but it doesn't pay in cash.

I love gardening and flowers and all that accompanies it. I love learning about things. I love astronomy and physics. I love non-profit organizations. I love business dealings. I love the music business. I love music period. I love art. I love airplanes. I love hard labor (no really, I do.). I love taking care of kids. I love pastoring. I love working at a church. I love being a housemaker. I love cooking. I love baking. I love designing. I love writing. I love cars. I love taking things a part and putting them back together. I love figuring out how things work. I love being inventive. My interests really seem limitless.

I love learning about everything and anything I can, but I don't want to do any of the above as a career. I would feel like I was betraying the others because, you see, I don't love any one more than the other. I could sit at home one day and garden all day and the next be just as happy working on my car. My range of interests does not end and this, this is what makes it SO VERYVERYVERY hard for me to decide what I should go back to school for. I don't want to get a degree just to get a degree. That's stupid and pointless, at least in my opinion. I want my money and my parents' money to go towards something I'm passionate about.

My frustration is endless as I go around in loops trying to find out what I love so much and that could allow me to make money (as unfortunate as it is to need it) and somehow allow me to still learn all the random things of life that I'm so interested in!

If you read this and something strikes you, please, by all means let me know! I am pretty much good at everything, not to sound conceited but I can do almost any job (that doesn't require tons of professional training and school and learning) you put in front of me with just a little training.

I just...want to be passionate about my career. I want to look back on my life the day I retire and say, "Holy crap I have LOVED my life! God was totally glorified because I loved what I did."

I don't want to look back and say, "Well, guess that's it. It was pretty good, if I do say so."

I want to accomplish big things...I just don't know what those things are yet. I'm not okay with mediocre. I serve a BIG God and I want to do BIG things for and with Him.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

Consistency!

Three weeks ago now, we started 2012! Yay! And with that new start of a year, comes the infamous new year's resolutions that we all make and forget two or three weeks in.

This year, I decided to make one. Only one. It's a resolution that tends to encompass everything that needs to be resolved.

This year, I resolve to be consistent. It's the one thing I have never done in my life. For as long as I can remember, I would start something, stay with it for a bit, and then it would fizzle out of my life. Being consistent will involve self-control, determination, perseverance, and, well, consistency.

The areas of my concentration so far have been consistently having regular devotionals in the beginning of my days, counting points on weight watchers as closely as I can, housework regularly, and exercising 2-3 times a week. So far, I've been doing rather well!

I have a devotional I found when I was home for Christmas called "365 daily Devotionals: Hearing from God Each Morning" by Joyce Meyer. Each morning for the past two weeks, I have been doing this during or before breakfast. Sometimes, if I wake up later, I take it with me and before I meet with a friend or something I take the three minutes to read it and let it sink in. It's been fabulous! I love that God has something for me in each and everyone thus far. He's so using it!!!

I have been doing the dishes daily and making sure things stay relatively tidy so I don't get overwhelmed when I decide to clean the house. I've also been keeping my room clean and tidy as well as my car.

Weight Watchers makes me really think about what I eat because I have to think about the points of everything. I've been using my weekly points all on the weekend...but I think I'm going to stop that because it's hard during the week and no grace means more intense work outs.

And as far as working out is concerned, I've been trying that this week. I went once last week and once this week. I plan on going tonight. In fact, I'm bribing myself with cookie dough. If I go, I can have a serving of cookie dough...it's my favorite thing.

That's it! Simple consistency.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae