Overview of this Week

After my scare of "no weightloss" on Saturday, I weighed myself again on Sunday just for kicks. It said I had lost 1.2 lbs. Much better than .2lbs. Just goes to show that weighing every 2 weeks is a better idea.

This weekend I can very happily say I did pretty well! I went to a party where I had a cookie and a brownie. That was it. No birthday cake, no soda, no nothing. With that, I even danced a lot! Which upped my cardio levels a lot. When workout time came around Sunday, I decided to just do the cardio because I was so tired and sore. It was good, but I'm still really tired.

Bad news, last night I was at the coffee shop I volunteer at and I caved. I ended up eating like 3 of these heavenly coconut, pecan, chocolate sugary goodness things. I just couldn't help myself! It was bad and I felt bad after it. I had denied the Chinese food my friends had offered me and then caved over the dessert. Ugh!

Aside from that, today I woke up and went to workout with one of my friends and it was great(which we will be doing every Tuesday at 8:30 if you wanna join)! I really got into my leg presses and put the weight on 180. A new thing I'm doing and becoming very conscious of is consuming more protein! My brother says that protein after a workout is really good for you because it'll help rebuild your muscles faster or something. So he told me to drink 2cups of milk after each workout. That's about 180 calories with 18 grams of protein plus the milk I had with breakfast and whatever other protein I got from breakfast. Protein's apparently really good for you. Back to the milk though, he said that when you drink it after you replenish some of your nutrients you lost right away and something about calcium making your metabolism better...? I don't remember exactly what he said but I know milk is good for you to have after working out. =)

On a side note, my sleep was off this weekend and it's carried over into this week. The school year is just getting into full swing and I'm just realizing how much work I really have! It's gonna be crazy and I'm really going to have to stay on top of things. I really need to be in bed by like 10-1030 at the latest. Getting enough sleep also will help with weightloss, so I've heard.

Well, pray I can stay on top of things and don't "fall into temptation" again.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

Two Weeks

So I am officially changing my weigh-ins to every OTHER week rather than every week.

See I talked to my brother/trainer today and he gave me a lot to think about. First and foremost, you're basically guaranteed to lose weight if you do everything right. Thing is, your body needs that chance to adjust things. So every week you might not lose a ton of weight even if the week before you did. Like, if you did something slightly different that week in your routine, your body takes a little while to metabolize the change and adjust and all that stuff. So for me, I went off my routine of eating about every two hours and didn't eat regularly a few days this week. I also started to drink more coffee and more water so it is possible my body is retaining fluids more than normal or the caffeine confused my metabolism or my metabolism slowed on those irregular days.

Another thing is if you weigh your self every two weeks, then the loss will likely be bigger and thus more encouraging and exciting for me. There is a huge psychological aspect to losing weight. Like yesterday, when I stepped into that size 18 dress and it zipped, my self-esteem sored through the roof! I couldn't wait to lose more weight. Yet, when I stepped on the scale today and saw the tiny loss, I was discouraged and wanted to just throw in the towel because I didn't think I would lose more or that my body had decided it would remain this way forever. So, next weigh-in is scheduled for two weeks from now. So February the 12 I will be giving you an update on weight and will still be posting about my struggles and my successes in between.

Okie doke!

Pray with me that I can remain motivated and can lose lots more weight in the next two weeks!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

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Confused

It's Saturday and you all know what that means. Weigh-in day.

I woke up earlier than I wanted thanks to my cat. So I figured why not get up and step on the scale! So I did. I lost .2 lbs. Needless to say I'm not thrilled. I'm trying to tell myself well it happened like this the first week when I only lost .8 lbs and then lost 4.8 lbs. I mean it definitely seems like I should have lost more. People are even starting to notice a little. I even went through my food journal and seriously did great. Maybe it's too much coffee. I mean obviously I'm going to ask big brother about it. I just really don't get it. Maybe it's all the water I'm drinking.

On a higher note, I'm a dress size down! Which also doesn't add up with the .2lb weightloss, but whatever! In December when I tried on a dress I have to wear for a wedding, I was going to need to order a size 20. Yesterday I zipped into a size 18!!!! I was sooooo excited! Really, I feel great and just don't get that scale. I might go to the gym and step on their very accurate-seming one. That's how much it's bothering me.

Maybe my brother's right and I should weigh myself every two weeks just so I can be happier with the results. Well I guess we shall see.

Okay so pray that I don't get too discouraged from the little loss and that I can continue to lose weight and no matter what NOT gain it.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.
--Maggie Mae

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Anxious

So it's Friday!

I'm really excited it's the weekend. No school, a little work, and relaxation.

Since it's Friday, tomorrow is Saturday which means weigh-in day. I don't know why but I'm always super nervous about weighing myself. I have this ridiculous doubt that I'm going to have gained weight or not have lost any. I mean, I had another dream that I had lost more weight and that should encourage me but it just doesn't. I mean, my dreams haven't been wrong yet...I should trust my sub-conscious. I mean, I know I haven't eaten badly, minus one day when I went over my maximum intake by 100calories. Other than that, I have had barely any chocolate or bad things to eat. I just wish I could believe I had lost weight. Guess the scale shall tell all tomorrow!

So, something new that happened this week, one of my friends and I have decided to go to the gym early in the mornings on Tuesdays. See, I've been going to my gym after I'd get out of class on Tuesdays around 3:30. However, this time is the worst time to go because everyone and their grandmaw are there at 3:30! Seriously, it took me 30 minutes to park this past Tuesday and I had to cut my workout short because the machines I needed were being used. I did get to do my cardio and a little extra, at that. So I'm hoping that didn't hinder my workout or weightloss too much. And she wants the accountability for going to the gym for at least an hour. See she's going to try-out for this rocking dance team and is trying to "get her thighs to not touch." Hahaha! So it'll be good for both of us to have that accountability on Tuesdays. I'll just have to shower before class at the gym.

Hopefully my anxieties will be put to rest tomorrow morning. My dream was that I had lost like 10lbs or something? Which I doubt, but hopefully another 4. =)

So, pray that I won't give into my temptations and that I can rest assured that as long as I continue to eat right and exercise, I will lose weight and it will be good.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

changing

So I gotta say I'm pretty excited right now.

One, I feel fantastic! My endorphins are flowing full speed and all the toxins are out of my body. Basically I had a great workout. Definitely need to get to an asthma specialist because my chest got really tight today even with the inhaler I have.

Two, I'm noticing my body changing. Its the weirdest and best thing ever! Like, I notice that a shirt doesn't quite outline every buldge anymore. Or that those annoying bulsges around my body are looking smaller. Even more exciting, my bras fit better! Guys, you might wanna skip the rest of this paragraph. So I've had high breasts all my life and they've always kind of overflowed. Well, they're fitting better into their cups! I don't have to adjust or feel like I need to constantly watch them right now. If you know me well, you understand why this is so great for me. Men, and women, tend to notice and its annoying when I go to order food and I have to repeat my order because the guy behind the cash register was too distracted by my breasts! Its humiliating. Now as they're getting smaller because of my weightloss, I can start being treated more like everyone else and give my order once. And I'll also be able to buy clothes easier. With big boobs, it's really hard to get tops that aren't too low and require a cami with them. My mom tries so hard to buy me things I don't have to layer with, but its really hard.

Anyway, so its cool seeing my body morph into a smaller me. Even more than just seeing it, I'm feeling it. I have more energy, I'm hungrier(which shows my metabolism is up) and I sleep better at night! Everything is going great.

One last thing about this new lifestyle I love, is the fact that its just that. A lifestyle. I won't be as tired for the rest of my life, I'll he able to help others make more informed choices about working out and eating, and my children won't have a fat mommy. I always worried about my kids seeing me fat and following in my footsteps. I want my family to eat healthy and exercise as a family. It just sounds fun to me.

Well, there you have it! I'm doing well and in two days we'll see the results of this week's work.

Pray this mindset continues and that this new lifestyle will help with stress as it comes.

I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.
--Maggie Mae

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It's Like My own Series!

So you know those TV shows on MTV that I had mentioned where the girls were only a bit bigger than I and how they always seem to lose tons of weight in like 3 months? Well, I'm starting to feel like them, just with out the TV cameras and stuff. Like literally, I was thinking the only reason they actually lose weight so quickly and stuff is because they're on TV and they have to or whatever.

Well, I kind of feel like them now. I have tons of people constantly telling me about how they read this and how people are proud and stuff. IT's really great. I'm so excited to have so many people supporting me!

Anyway, so I'm a bit sore today, which is good. Really good. I've been trying to make myself sore every workout but it hasn't been happening. I just couldn't get sore! Today though, my armpits and legs are relatively sore. It's a really great feeling. It makes me feel like I'm actually doing something right.

Something else super exciting, I'm not as tired after working out as I was the first few times. I can catch my breath a little fast and my heart beat tends to slow a little more after quicker. It's pretty cool. I also remember that when I did my first or second interval training on the elliptical my heart rate sky-rocketed to 216 for a bit. Now the highest I can get it is around 190. Which is still pretty high, but it shows that my body is getting in better shape.

I still need to go to the doctor to find out what I need to do about my asthma. Yesterday, as I went into my first interval session, I felt my chest tighten and I thought I might have to get off. I decided to just push through and see what would happen since I could still breathe decently. I got my breathing back in order and my chest wasn't really tight anymore. I think I just need something like an inhaler to take before and after workouts or whatever. We'll see.

So, my week is starting out well. I still have a few things I need to get done, like ordering one more textbook and trying to figure out where my other one is and why it hasn't arrived and get my phone fixed. But all is seemingly well.

Pray for my consistency with working out to continue because its starting to get hard to keep it up.

I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

It's Saturday

So, the last time I weighed myself was 6days ago. And today I weigh 4.8lbs LESS! Making it a total loss so far of 5.6 lbs.

I'm super excited! Not to mention proud and thankful all at the same time.

I can't wait to see what will happen this next week.

So if you're just tuning in and curious as to what on earth helped me lose that weight. Well, you see I have been eating much less food. Like between 1500-1700 calories a day. I've been diligent about exercising with weight training and interval cardio training. I've been posting a blog to help with my accountability. And lastly, I rely fully on God. He is the only thing that gets me through each day and with prayers like,"Lord, help my metabolism speed up," I have lost a good amount of weight in a small period of time. Also wanna give a shout out to my brother for being the most awesome personal trainer ever! He always gets on my case about eating unhealthy foods and helps direct me in a more healthy way and he's giving me other options and being there basically 24/7 for my questions and with his answers.

I'd also like to thank the people that continue to pray for and support me. My parents, sister, brother, and all the friends that I have that randomly come to me and say,"Oh hey! I've been reading your blog. Keep it up!"

So, now I'm at work and writing this because it finally slowed down. I honestly do really know what else to put up here today. I mean, the big news has been said. Yep, that's all I got for right now.

Pray that this weightloss continues and next week I lose a great amount as well!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae =)

A Chance to Breathe...sorta

So this week has been crazy busy, but that's when I tend to stick to my healthy living ways better(let's not call it dieting....dieting is temporary. healthy living is always). I haven't had time to ponder over just wanting food because I'm bored because I haven't been bored! It's been a really good week. And right now I have a small and short chance to breathe a little, even though I have no chance tomorrow through next week to breathe any more....ha.

I'm nervous about weighing-in tomorrow simply because I am. I know I've done well this week as far as keeping up with exercising, writing down every little thing I ingest, and not eating typically fattening foods. I just am anxious to see the results, I guess.

I had a dream the other night though that was kind of encouraging. I dreamed I had lost like 40lbs! I stepped on the scale like ten times to make sure in my dream. And as weird as it is, when I have dreams like that about my weight, they're normally true. Like one time I dreamed I gained 1lb. The next day I weighed, and I did. One time I dreamed I lost 2lbs. Same thing. I know I didn't lose 40lbs this week, but I had to have lost something!

On another note, my "trainer" got mad at me today. We went to Outback to eat and I ended up being honest and telling him I had "treated" myself to a low-fat how mocha from McDonald's. He got mad because of all the sugar and "empty" calories I had just put in my body that probably got processed right away and stored as fat. I guess I really shouldn't think of eating unhealthy things as "treating myself" because I'm really hurting myself in the long run. Hmm, that's definitely an interesting thought. Let's see if that works for this next week!

Well, keep posted for the weigh-in. Pray I lost weight and that my anxiety is for naught.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

WOAH Bessy!

Weird title I know. But it just kind of describes how I'm feel at this exact moment in time.

So while my hours for school may not be many this semester, the 13 I am taking have me doing crazy amounts of work! I know stress doesn't always help in losing weight, but I feel like I'm gonna be so super busy that I wont have time to snack on the "unmentionables." Good thing I realized today is that working out is now a priority for me. It's really cool. Like today I knew I was gonna have to either kill myself trying to fit in a workout and a shower before leadership or go before my class. I went before. It was kind of nice because there were less people there than in the afternoons.

Anyway, working out is going really well. I was sore yesterday and tweeked one of my muscles in a painful way but it went away by the time I got to the gym, which I was going to regardless of comfort level. Don't worry though, I know my limits and won't be hurting myself.

After my workout today I knew I wouldn't have time to make lunch and shower and catch the bus. So in our gym there's a smoothie king. I thought I would just get a "trim down" smoothie and I'd be in the clear. Well I texted my brother to ask if they were okay for a meal and to my amazement he said no way! Apparently their Smoothies are more than milk and fruit. He said there was tons of sugar in them and they're really high calorie. I knew the calorie thing but almost didn't believe his sugar thing. So I looked it up. A 20oz muscle punch has 366 calories, 84 carbs, and 75 sugars!!! I was like woah! Seriously! That's ridiculous! So I drank my smoothie but its likely I with never order another. Next time I'm running short on time, I'll be hitting up mc's for a salad. Cheap and better for you.

Well there's my life right now. ..plus work. Luckily I can do schoolwork while at work. Makes it loads easier!

Alrighty, so I ask you to pray that I can keep my center Jesus, remain committed to my commitments, and live through the semester!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does so I can.
--Maggie Mae

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Schedules, disclaimers, and balancing acts!

I'm trying to remember if anything remarkable or worth mentioning happened today.

Well, I had a productive day to say the least. Did a photo-shoot (that's right, I'm a model in the making ;] ), cleaned and organized my room, and am ready for school to start tomorrow!

It was an okay day food-wise. I did fail at passing up the snack of Zaps chips (my very favorite type of potato chip) while watching TV. However, it was only a serving so I guess it wasn't a total failure. I made my lunch and went on a picnic with a dear friend and then made a not-so-healthy dinner. It was basically just a spanish rice mix. It wasn't horrible calorie wise but it definitely wasn't healthy. Tomorrow I'm making a nice chicken dish for me and two wonderful women I'll be leading a bible study with this semester. (If you wanna come along we'll be having it Tuesdays 7-9 at my place! Email, call, or text for more info =] )

Now, I want you to be aware, it is very possible and all the more likely that I will be missing posts more often now that school is starting. My days are long and filled, but if I get a spare minute I'll give an update. Weight will still be updated weekly for sure. So if the posts become more scarce, you can count on that one on Saturdays. Definitely going to try hard to get one up here at least once a day. It helps me to know that I have accountability and that I'll have to be honest at the end of the day with the people who read this blog.

One last thing, while planning my days for the semester, I have finalized my workout schedule for those that were thinking about working out with me. Here are my days and times:

Sundays 3-4, Tuesdays 3:30-4:30, and Thursdays 10:30-11:30 or 3:30-4:30. If you can come with me great! If you can commit and come every week, awesome. If you can come once in a blue-moon that's awesome too!

I'm excited about this semester. It's super busy and there's a lot going on, but I know God's in all of it and that just makes it better.

So, be praying I can keep up with this crazy life I'm living and that I can find the perfect balance of health, school, work, and play.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

Loss Isn't ALWAYS Bad...

It's commonplace for people to weep or mourn after the loss of a loved one or a dear friend. Well, today I rejoice for a loss. A loss of myself.

I lost weight this week. It was small but it was still weightloss and any weightloss is still weightloss. I lost .8lbs this week! It's almost a pound and it still thrills me! It's my first weightloss in this journey and I'm excited to share this with y'all!

Now for a confession, last night I had fro-yo.....with granola. It was delicious, but I knew it wasn't an "okay" thing to do and will not be happening every day by any means whatsoever. Good thing, when I went out to eat this afternoon for lunch, I ate a "lite" sandwich for around 500 calories with steamed veggies. I really only ate the broccoli but whatever I still ordered the healthier choice over chips or fruit with fruit dip.

Well, it's time to go get my workout on! The retreat made my soreness worse from playing kickball with my bad knee and falling on my butt really hard, but I'm a lot less sore today and am ready for another week of it! So here we go! On to the next week!

Pray I can lose more weight this week and continuously count calories and workout when I need to.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

Change in Plans

This just a short update. So far its been a good week. Exercising, eating small portions more often to prevent crazy hunger, and eating healthier foods.

Well I've kind of got my schedule firgued out. This means with eating healthy, class, work, and leadership I have planned my exercise days. I've only had a chance to ft to the gym 2 days this week with my new work out but I played kick ball yesterday. My brother told me to only do the program 3 days a week every other day. So I won't be able to go on Saturdays because of work so now the days are Sunday, Tuesday, and Thursday. This also means I'm changing my weigh-in day to Saturday. This will start next week. I'll go to the gym tomorrow and weigh-in tomorrow but also weigh-in on Saturday. Everything's going to work out great! All credit to God because He gave me this schedule and everything. Its gonna be grand!

So pray school gets off to a good start and so does everything else!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.
--Maggie Mae

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Doing Well =)

Again, my apologies for not posting yesterday. It's just taking a while to actually get into the swing of being back and remembering to post.

Yesterday went rather well. I went to get groceries from Walmart and I feel like I got some good stuff. I planned my meals from yesterday til Sunday pretty much but I don't know that they'll stay that way seeing as my friend is cooking dinner(healthy) on Saturday for us and tomorrow I'll be on a retreat.

Great news though! Last night I had a little get together at my house and maybe a fire to do marshmellows and what not. Well, I only ate a few marshmellows, like not even a serving! I was so proud of myself for stopping myself. On top of that, my friend brought kit cat bars, aka Chocolate....I only ate one. =) I did eat way more Zaps chips then I should have, I will admit to that. I ate way to much there. But I was faced with so much temptation and I feel that while I didn't pass with flying colors, I did pass. Maybe like a C. HaHa.

More good news(not totally dealing with weight-loss but it could help with that). I got a job! Where? At a PJ's Coffee! I'm so stoked! I've always wanted to work there and my friend's aunt and uncle own it and they're hiring and she called me and asked if I wanted it! I know you might think,"Won't you be tempted by all the sweets and coffee things that they have?" Oddly enough, I don't eat the stuff while I work in a coffee shop. I volunteer in my college ministries coffee shop and I'm always fine when I'm there. I might have a Mocha or something but it's like one and with skim milk. I don't like to have too much caffeine so it's not hard to pass up. Also, I'd feel bad if I ate the stuff there. It's for the customers. Not me. So I'll be on my feet a little more. Out of the house away from my fridge, so maybe, just maybe, this job will help me lose weight!

My diet is going well too in spite of the party last night. I ate small meals yesterday and followed the "main food" with a granola bar. Like, I had a lean roast beef sandwich on wheat bun with light mayo and some cheese. Probably about 250-300 calories for that sandwich. But I wasn't totally satisfied. So instead of eating something unhealthy, or worse, I made my "dessert" a granola bar. I love love love granola bars so when I was shopping yesterday I bought 3 different kind. One has a little chocolate in it even! It's dark chocolate so it's better for you. This morning I made a ridiculously awesome yogurt parfait! Berries, lowfat yogurt, and granola. It was so much to eat! But it was super low calorie for the amount of food you get! Not to mention I got dairy, fruit, and grain in one sitting! I think I'm gonna even half the amount of yogurt. The serving is one cup, but it was hard to eat that. So I'm going to try a half of a cup next time.

This is great! I feel great right now! Well, I'm off to make the job thing official with an application and interview and whatever else! Then workout, which I'm actually looking forward to!

Pray I can keep up this streak!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

Work It Out!

Yeah, I know. I keep missing days. Yesterday I moved back up to my college town so I was preoccupied by packing and driving and stuff. Please forgive it.

I did my first workout yesterday! It went really well. I definitely need to challenge myself a little more as far as the weight training is concerned. I'm pretty sore around my shoulders and peck muscles, but my legs are absolutely fine. Definitely can use more weight, which is super exciting for me. See, after I had surgery in July on my knee, I didn't use it much. Even during my PT sessions, it wasn't much. So, consequentially, the quad muscle in my right leg went down a lot and wasn't as strong as it used to be. It's getting there again but it's taking a while. So, the fact that I was pumping 100lbs on the leg press without pain and am not sore today is pretty exciting to me! I've always loved the muscle in my legs and prided it, so when it went away, I wasn't too thrilled. The fact that it's coming back is like woah exciting! =)

My brother/personal trainer gave me an interval cardio routine to do. I do 2 minutes of relatively light elliptical (again really exciting because a few months ago my knee said no way to the elliptical) and then 1 minute of intense level and speed. I loved it! I was out of breath and sweating, but it felt pretty outstanding! On a side note, I have asthma. It's not bad and I don't have asthma attacks, but if it's cold weather out, then when I work out my chest tightens up and it gets hard to breathe deeply. My dad thinks I might should get an inhaler. It doesn't hinder me right now, but I guess eventually it could. So I'll probably get some sort of inhaler that I can take before and after working out so that I can breathe easy.

Today, I just got done planning my meals from now til Sunday. I plan on shopping every week so that I can plan my meals better. I'm not going to be home Friday til Saturday afternoon so I don't have much to get today. I am however going get some basic things that will last a while or that I'm eating within the next few days. Like granola bars, nuts, fruit. My brother recommends those snacks but I'm open to other suggestions. =)

So, everything is good right now. I'll be back at the gym tomorrow and starting school next week. I can't wait to get back into the swing of things! =)

My prayer requests today are for you to pray I can control my eating even when I go on the retreat(Friday-Saturday) and that I can figure out the right weight to start off with with weight training.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

Chocolate is My Weakness

This week I can finally start to try and get my routine down! I just talked to my "personal trainer" (aka my brother) and he gave me a worked out routine and a slightly more strict diet then I'm used to. I think the work out routine should be pretty easy and routine, but it's going to take a lot of control to stick to the diet. A lot of the diet is things I've been aiming for like portion control and less calorie intake. He also suggested only whole grain carbs. Apparently they last longer and aren't as "fast burning." The difficult part will be giving up sugary foods.

I love love love things with sugar! Chocolate is my weakness. A lot of times people will assume that's the main thing that women adore, but it's a little more extreme for me. As in, I can't honestly tell you the last time I went an entire day without some kind of chocolate. It's bad. I'd even go as far to say as it's an addiction. Maybe not just to chocolate, but to sugar in general. People can be addicted to caffeine and even exercise, so why can't I be addicted to sugar? Not saying I want to be addicted to it, but signs point close to it if ya know what I mean.

So I was planning on going back to school tonight, but it got late and my parents told me to go tomorrow. It's actually a good thing. I'm not too familiar with some of the machines my brother told me to use so I'm going to go to the gym with my dad tomorrow morning and explore. That way I'll be at a hospital gym where they can show me how to use all the machines and if I get hurt my dad will be right there and, well, it's a hospital gym.

One really annoying thing from today was that I had this horrible gas! I know fiber is supposed to be a big part of diets and stuff, but man oh man! This stuff is just ridiculous. I'll have to eat something with less fiber tomorrow morning for breakfast. Ya know, I really love breakfast. You can have so much variety in it! Yogurt, parfaits, bagels, grits, cereal, fruit, granola, whatever you want! It's said that breakfast is the most important meal of the day. Well, this is true. I was watching that MTV new reality show called "I used to be Fat," and one of the trainers explained it. You should eat within the first hour of being awake because you haven't been eating for 8 or so hours (or however long you've been asleep) and your body is HUNGRY! Even if we don't feel hungry, we are! It makes sense if you ask me. When I'm awake, if I go 8 hours without eating, I'm starving!

So anyway, I'll be starting a new work out routine that will put me in the gym about an hour every other day or so for those that volunteered to come with me. Pray I can be consistent and that I don't get too sore from the workout and that I don't get hurt. Oh, and pray I can stay away from sweets. Yeah, pray hard for that one!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

Yesterday and then Today's Weigh In

So I was so tired I forgot to post yesterday...my apologies.

Yesterday was good. Pretty much just meals and no snacks.

I was thinking this week had been a good one. I exercised three days and ate much better, but when I weighed myself this morning and was incredibly unhappy. I had gained .2 pounds! Needless to say I'm confused. I told my mom and she said maybe I need to exercise more. Very true and a probable reason for the gain this week. So this next week I'm going back to Baton Rouge so hopefully I can ft a schedule going and plan my meals better.

My brother is going to help me out which will be really good. He's the closest thing I have to a personal trainer. He told my mom he has a regiment that will help me drop like 20-30 lbs in 6weeks! I have to do it correctly but still, wow.

So pray this week I can do better and not be discouraged.

I cab do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.
--Maggie Mae

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Eating Out Just Needs to Happen Less for Me

I must admit I'm afraid these post are going to become mundane and boring.

Anyway, other than that slight fear, I would have to say today has been challenging. Lunch at a Mexican restaurant and then dessert at a coffee shop. Lots of calories. In fact by 3 this afternoon I had met my calorie "goal" for the day. Luckily the goal is tentative and as long as I don't eat more than 2000 calories per day I should be good.

Last week may have been difficult because of all the parties I attended, but this week has been difficult seeing all the "out-to-eats" I've been doing. Even tomorrow I'm having breakfast with a friend at La Madeleine. I think that once I get all of this eating out stuff done with(after tomorrow) I'm going to try to eat out only twice a month. It's definitely not too healthy and very difficult to order good food that's healthy out. Even the taco salad I ordered today was probably close to or more than 700 calories! Eating out just needs to be less. I even looked up the menu before I went so I wouldn't have to look at the menu. Most of the food wasn't even close to healthy. Eating out just needs to happen less for me.

Sad to say, this blog doesn't really have much to it. Not much happened today other than hanging out with my friends. I did decide that once my current prescription of birth control is up, I'm going to stop taking it. It's been making me feel sick lately so I'm going to go back to magnesium with chelated zinc to treat my woman problems. I don't know how that will effect my appetite or weightloss, but I know that it helps you retain water so maybe I'll lose a little because of it!

Well, two and a half days until the next weigh in. Let's pray I've been doing everything right and not underestimating calories!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

Honesty is the best policy, or Is it?

Today was a new day. I was determined to make better decisions than I did yesterday and not eat as much chocolate or snack. I think it went rather well even though I went to IHOP and ate a lot there, I didn't eat that much the rest of the day. In fact, I felt really sick after we left. I'm starting to think my body is beginning to reject greasy foods like bacon or syrup and pancakes and stuff. I felt so sick. Headache, nausea, weakness. It was really bad. So I broke the "no nap" thing and slept for three hours. But I was sick, it won't be an everyday occurrence no matter what.

But there was a very emotional thing that happened today....My mom and dad decided to tease me about IHOP and say sarcastic comments about how it's not "in the calories" I allow myself each day or how "well that meal just didn't count, right?" It hurt. I hurt a lot and I made that very known. Everything in me wanted to curse and yell and scream. While I didn't eat because of it or anything, it just, hit a sore spot. My parents weren't being supportive. The people I want support from the most were being sarcastic and rude. My mom kept saying it wasn't being mean, but she didn't hear it the way I did.

Something else I'm learning is how much I respond better to positive feedback and criticism. I've never been one to like criticism but over the years I have grown from it and when presented correctly, I listen to it and actually put it to good use. My mom doesn't know how to do that. When I was on weight watchers, I lost ten pounds pretty quick. But then it just stayed. I was having trouble losing but at least I wasn't gaining. All she said though was how disappointed she was in me for not losing weight. Not "it's okay at least you didn't gain weight this week!" or "is there anything I can do to help?" or "it's okay just really focus and try harder next week. you've lost before you can do it again!" I don't know why she can't say that. I want the most support from her, yet it feels like I get the least amount.

Before you ask, "Well have you told her any of this?!" Yes, yes I have. Multiple times. She doesn't listen very well. Now don't get me wrong, I love my mom and everything, but her compassion and understanding needs help. Sometimes I question whether honesty really is the best policy when it comes to family. Honesty seems to just put a target over my heart and give my family a bow and arrow! I just wish I knew how to lie better....

So anyway......

Today was generally good as far as food is and calories are concerned. I was even sore today from walking two miles yesterday! It was nice. And when I say sore, I mean in my bad knee where the muscle is still strengthening again...

Well, tomorrow is Thursday and I have a lunch date with some friends at a Mexican place. Pray that they have a healthy salad or something, and also that I will have the will power to order the salad rather than the Chimchangas or burritos or whatever else while I watch everyone else eat whatever they want.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

Satisfaction [Not] Guaranteed

Men, you might not want to read this post as it has to do with some lady stuff ;)

Today was really not that great with changing my habits. I wanted so badly to just sit quietly and watch my normal shows on TV, but I couldn't. The overwhelming craving for chocolate fudge was, well, overwhelming! It's PMS week and the cravings are worst then normal. I'm on birth control to help with this kind of stuff, but this time it's just not helping quite as much.

I learned with Weight Watchers that when eating and planning your meals for the day, you need to make sure you're satisfied. I tend to be pretty good at this and learning small things to get better at it. Things like chewing really slow and deliberately. I even told myself earlier while eating the leftovers from the night before for lunch, that my mom would want some and I shouldn't eat it. It worked, but then I ate ice cream and fudge and then a little more fudge. Finally, I got aggravated enough to get off the couch and busy myself. I didn't eat for a good long time and even went walking with a friend(my knee didn't cooperate too well so I don't know how her walk was, but mine was strenuous...ha). I passed on getting a smoothie after, but when we walked out of TJMaxx, a lady was selling "World's Finest Chocolate Bars" for $2 and to help out the youth at her church, or something. I totally caved and bought some chocolate covered raisins. Don't get me wrong, I felt totally guilty, but it was just sooo good! I hate hormones. I may have been able to pass her by had I not had $2 and serious cravings, not to mention my hunger level was increasing.

I was still hungry two hours later when I got home. I wolfed down dinner and wasn't quite full, but I was satisfied for the moment. Then, as I was relaxing, I felt the craving for fudge creep back up. I ate a piece very slowly and forgot the craving for a while. I decided to take a nice long stress-relieving salt bath. It felt good, but I found myself hungry when I got out! I just don't get it! So, I had more leftovers and a glass of milk. Even as I type this I'm trying to convince myself I'm satisfied!

I wish food came with a "100% Guaranteed or your money back!" label. Or that there was a magical satisfaction pill or unsatisfaction thing that you could lose weight with. Yeah, there's lypo-suction, or however you spell it, but I'm not wealthy and can't afford that, or the dangerous and very serious gastric bypass surgeries that shrink your stomach. I just want something that will make me feel full and shut the cravings down right away! I've heard of gum working for some people, but I'm not a big gum person. I really don't know what to do about that. My flesh, literally, controls me more than my mind does. I think,"Don't eat it, you don't need it." But it just doesn't work.

I wish I had hormones that could be controlled better. Maybe I should ask my doctor about them.

Well, ladies and the men that stuck it out, pray for me. Pray my self-control can overcome my hormones for the next 2 weeks!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae

Support

Wow! Really just wow! Thank you guys so much for all the support! Really. People I haven't talked to in a while or talk to rarely are telling me they support me and are praying for me! not to mention my closer friends and family!

I really think this support group is gonna help, a lot.

This is gonna be a short entry BC I didn't have time to use a computer so I'm on my cell UT I promised to try at least once a day.
And...I have good news to report. I only ate 2 pieces of fudge today! I know that sounds odd but I have this sweet tooth and that tooth is addicted to chocolate and really likes fudge. My mom made all this fudge over the holidays and I have been eating it. But most of the time I'd take 2 pieces rather than 1 at a time and end up eating 4-6 pieces a day. Today I went to the box twice and took one piece each time. Its part of the "New Habit" thing. I just took one serving and ate it slowly. When it was gone, my sweet tooth craving had been cured. Well....at least for then. I did eat another piece after supper also, but just one. At a separate time. I'm probably addicted to sweets if ya wanna know the truth. But maybe by eating one serving once or face a day rather than two more than once a day, that addiction can be cured.

Also, I exercised. In the morning. Before I did anything else. And...I felt great the rest of the day! Granted my knee hurt a lot (still getting over surgery) but it was worth it and it will, in the long run help my knee out tremendously!

So its been a good start to the week. Keep praying and showing your support. =)

I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.
--Maggie Mae

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New Years//First Weigh-In

I forgot to post yesterday so this is for today and yesterday..

It's 2011 and everyone around me is saying how absolutely wonderful it will be. I have to agree, I feel like it will top 2010 without even trying. Since it's a new year, everyone around me is also making their "new year resolutions." Ever since I can remember my New Year resolution was, "I will lose X amount of weight in this many months." Every year, that would happen, for about a week. I remember hearing once on the radio that anyone with extreme resolutions would break them after about 2 weeks. TWO WEEKS! That's why this year, I'm not making "New Year's Resolutions."

I'm making New Year's New Habits.

Habits are the entire reason why I have gained so much weight over the past few years. When I was overweight in like 6 or 7th grade, the doctor told me if I stayed at that weight, I would be at a relatively healthy weight for the rest of my life. Since then I have gained more than 60lbs. 60lbs in about 7 years. And most of that occurred in highschool. I would eat as I pleased and as much as I pleased.

I've heard before it takes like 21 days to make a habit and God-knows how long to break a habit.

So, here are the habits I plan on breaking:

1. Eating more than one portion at a time/meal

2. Sleeping in everyday//taking a nap everyday

3. watching so much TV

4. not studying

5. not exercising

and by breaking those main 5 habits, I plan on forming the opposite habits:

1. eating one portion

2. waking up no later than 9am 6 days a week//working out instead of napping

3. trying to watch between 2-3 hours of TV a day

4. studying a little everyday

5. trying to get to the gym at least 3x's a week.

Now I know some of this is a little hard to probably start a habit with, but I know it can happen. People have done it before. And, I don't promise to keep to these everyday. I feel like that is completely unrealistic. There will be a day that I can't make it to the gym or watched 4 hours of TV. I will mess up, but hopefully that won't get me down.

My life is no longer a checklist for what good I have done for the day or what bad I have done. I just want to do things without thinking about it.

So, let the habits began! And let my body feel weird if I don't make it to the gym 3x's a week or eat 2 portions of dinner.

So, in closing, I weighed myself today. The first weigh of the new year. The first of 2011. I didn't lost weight. In fact I gained .8lbs. I'm trying really hard not to let that get to me. I know I had 3 parties I went to and ate at all of them and the calorie count was definitely off. But I don't want that to be my excuse every week. I do believe it contributed, but if I had exercised, maybe it would have made a difference. Let's see what happens this week and today.

This is difficult, it always has been. Pray. Pray hard. Don't just pray I lose weight, pray God changes my mindset about food, that He helps me feel full and satisfied. Even pray that He speeds up my metabolism. Those are practical prayers. Thanks. =)

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He does, so I can.

--Maggie Mae